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                                                   The keys to open the door...

          I'm so lost, very tired of thinking how to escape and I don't know where I'm supposed to go. I never think that this will happen. Staying in the place which is unfamiliar , you can't see even a spot of light and presence of electricity...Duhh..This is the place which they called left behind as civilization turns the clock. Thinking of it is a course, but I have no choice. To stay in this place with the three things with me which I know that will help me to keep on living.

       The first one is my family picture. These commodity is the only one which can make me smile. Though I'm not with my family, at least I can see them with my naked eyes.  I have them in my heart and in my mind. It's really hard for me not to be with them , but hte only thing that I can do is to pray for them to make sure that they will be ok and safe all the time.

       Second is the seed, you may think that it is useless, but for me it will be exploitable. I will bring that seed because I had my own means. The seed symbolizes a fragile life. Ypu may feel that you're too small, but time will come. Like a seed, you need to plant before it grows. I know that the seed ensembles me. My life that will face many obstacles. And I know that "todays dead flowers carries the seed of tomorrows bloom, so too does todays sadness carry the seed's of tomorrows joy".

       Last but not the least is the word of God and wisdom, the Bible. In my heart there is a place which is always open. The door that will never be closed. For Him , it will be always open to listen,to ponder, acquianted by the power of faith. The bible will lead me to God.Because I know that life, may not be whwt you planned, frustrations, are hard to understand. But God reigns up above and controls of everything.

      Indeed, " the ul;timate measure of a man is not where he stands, in movement of comfort and convenience but where he stands at time of challenge and anxiety.#

                                               It's not the right time...                     

       "Signal No. 5 is been raised in Metro, Manila ,so be ready, prepare all the things needed, classes are suspended in all levels, and evacuate if necessary", the redundant declaration of Malacanang Palace, embowed the Metro, Manila.

        I never expect that this will happen, a calamity that wouldstrike my mother city, I'm sure that many lives will be deprive,there will be multiple number of casualties and destructed mechanisms. I'm sure that no one can take it.

       But given that I'm a good person, and  if I were given a chance to save the persons whom I want to. I would prefer President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo and House Speaker Prospero Nograles. Huh, how dare them to die,it's not their time yet. Juan dela Cruz had'nt got his revenge, the sinners should be in jail, they should repent first,before reaching their last breathe.

       I don't want them to die so easily. They've done a big controversy. Corruption, amending the constitution,, how abominable they are to put an end to democracy,. It's so unfair if they will die instantly. I will save them because there are many more things to conquer. They should suffer more and they have to face the punishments of the Filipinos. Filipinos that are hungry and thirsty for vengeance.

      I will not have a second thought if that time will come. Because they have many things to pay for.

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                                                                      'Take it instantly'

            I never thought of the time on when I'm supposed to leave the world. I don't  know how, I don't know why, and I really don't want to take a glimpse of it.

            But if you will. ask me the manner, how I am going to die, it's transparent. I would probably prefer car accident. The reason why is that, I will not suffer too much. i will not wait for my last breath. I will not be waiting for the timethat I will leave the world. I don't want it to be tragic, but for me, it' better to be unexpected one. At least, when that time comes,I will not be afraid anymore and that way, I will not be fighting just to survive.  Because I admit to myself that I'm a dastard person.

      I want to die instantly. With this manner, I will die noy waiting, and it's immediate and without anticipation. #